Not so long ago, I singed a peace treaty with my doubts.
They are not my enemies anymore. They are my friends.

They do not oppose to my faith. They take their part in strengthening my faith. Could I explain what I mean by that?

I accept doubts as tools that God occasionally uses to expand my understanding of Him and the world I live in. I use doubts the same way as scientists do. How scientists are working? They develop a theory that explains certain natural laws, but they never settle for that. They keep on asking questions and expressing doubts in their theory. They challenge it. They are trying to be objective in their experiments, and if some of those experiments do not support their theory, they develop another theory.

If all scientists would ever quit doubting and try to repress their doubts, it would be a death of all scientific progress.

I believe that God uses our doubts concerning Him in order to expand our understanding of Him.

For example, some children believe that God is a big guy with a long white beard up there in the sky. Some adults believe this way, too. I dont believe in that image of God (and someone may call me an atheist, based on that). I agree with Jesus, who said that God is Spirit. I believe that He is Omnipotent and Omnipresent. For some persons it might be good a thing to do to have doubts about God, to challenge their childish image of Deity in order to develop more accurate image of Him.

For some persons it might be good to have doubts concerning Gods relationships with people and Gods plan for humanity just because their ideas are too limited.

Let us not be afraid of our doubts, but be afraid of our fear. It looks like many Christians got used to repress their doubts, because they are afraid that God would not love them and accept them if they will ever express their disbelief in certain things. From my point of view, God is not so narrow-minded. He knows our inner struggles, and has compassion on them. He is Love, and love is not harsh or judgmental.

Are we afraid to reject God completely and to become atheists? Well, atheism is a form of religion. True doubter, doubts even in his (her) doubts. In other words, he (she) is open for an idea of God. And God will prove Himself for every open person.

The best proof that God is and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him (Hebrews 11:6) is the proof of our experience. I have no doubts about those two things anymore, because I tested Him repeatedly. "Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good" (Psalm 34:8), encourages us the Scripture. However, my concepts of God and character of my relationships with Him has been in the process of development since the time of my conversion. For me, it is a good thing, not a scary thing.

All living things grow. I am alive, and it means that I grow. I grow, and it means that I am alive.